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[esperimental]

Ritsu Kageyama

Junior high student. 6+ months user. No this app doesn't get any less annoying.

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[glaciers]

They didn't explain how to use my powers. I was just using them. A lot.

It's good to have company.

[esperimental]

Maybe it was normal where that other you was from, or it was in your occupation.

Yeah, I guess so. [ ... He can't accidentally hurt people who are already dead. ]

Todoroki-san, to be blunt, I think wishing for a life before all the change is impossible. So while we try as we may to adjust and adapt, we need to accept reality too.

[glaciers]

My name is Shouto. Don't call me Todoroki.
The reality that 'real' isn't what we thought it was?

[esperimental]

Got it. My apologies Shouto-san.
Yeah. Such as what is 'real' now, anyway? The life we've always known, or the leaks that come in whenever they feel like? Along with these mysterious powers.

Nobody wants to be told they've been living a lie this whole time. But one way or other we're already questioning ourselves to differing extents.

[glaciers]

It's fine.
Apparently it's the leaks, if what we found in space is true. Those memories, abilities, and things we're getting? They're all ours, they've just been buried until now.

I hate that.

[esperimental]

[ Ritsu feels a lump in his throat. The blunt, honest truth, right there on his screen. He continues typing after swallowing his nerves down. ]

So that's how it is. Then they burst out at some times more calculated, and others randomized, mostly at the beginning of new months. And these changes won't stop coming, because we're the same as the other person.

[ All those violent memories-- he didn't want to be like that. Ritsu bites his lower lip lightly. It's a weak attempt to divert from their existential crises, but... ]

I still can't believe some of you ended up in space.

[glaciers]

[Shouto hasn't been taking it well either, but he's revealed that much to Aizawa.
But only Aizawa so far.]

I thought I knew myself, but I guess that's a lie.

There was a space sphinx who had doors to different environments. I went to the savannah from space. And we almost had to fight a lion.

[esperimental]

I know it's not all that helpful a sentiment, but in the end, most of us really don't know ourselves. I'm sorry you've been having a hard time Shouto-san, enough so that you were going to message someone about it. Pretty sure I'm the wrong recipient, but still.

Space savanna? How was the lion fight avoided?

[glaciers]

You're right, that wasn't helpful.

I froze it to the floor and we got the mecha part away from it.

[esperimental]

Negative times negative turning positive isn't productive, despite the saying that misery loves company.

[ Ice moves huh. Ritsu's not sure how comfortable he'll be seeing anything along that line for a long time. ]

I must have missed a lot when we all got back. Ghost army feels low-key in comparison.

[glaciers]

That only happens in math problems. If you add two negatives, they just become a bigger negative.

That's still pretty alarming. Like most of the month was.

[esperimental]

For once, I'd like if Retrospec could do something that could be solved with an equation. Things like existential despair, wouldn't that be helpful.

It really was. I don't want to go back to school.

[glaciers]

It'd be nice, but I don't that's actually going to happen.

It's going to feel weird. Going back to school after everything that's happened.

[esperimental]

If we didn't have tuition or scholarships to worry about wasting, I'd gladly just not go.
But then there's no telling what other way would easily fill up that amount in free time.

Complying with their definition of "back to normal" makes me feel ill.

[glaciers]

I don't want mom to be disappointed in me.

[The reason Shouto does 99% of what he does. Even if how real his mother is seems uncomfortably up in the air.]

What can we do? Hack into the app? I don't know anything about code.
Or reality bending?

[esperimental]

I know how that is.

[ Ritsu's connection with his parents overseas has been so bad lately, he's only contacted once since his return to this reality, and wisely neglected to mention all the traumatic parts. What else can you do when you hate people worrying about you. ]

We're all working together, right? That's what people are trying to organize. But most of us are strangers just suffering on the same boat. Sinking but trying to slow it down, maybe.

[glaciers]

I'm not close to most of the people on here.
But I have people I can rely on and talk to.
I don't know if it helps or not.
I hope you do too.

[esperimental]

No part of "can rely on and talk to" sounds bad.

Thanks Shouto-san.

[ He has little intention to let anyone back into his world after last August, but stating so would again, be reason for people to worry. So he doesn't have to know. ]